2002-04-16 - 11:04 p.m.

We ALL Deserve a Chance

It happened... I ended up running too late to write an entry. The reason being was because I wanted to watch some of the movie my mother and brother were watching, "America's Sweethearts". I got hooked on it right away...

This famous movie star woman person has a sister, who's not as pretty and heavy. The "heavy sister" ends up loding 60 pounds. The famous movie star woman's ex-husband, another famouse movie star, ends up falling in love with that sister. Watch it yourself to get all the details... I don't want to give anything away.

Anyways, that famous movie star woman treated her sister like crap. C-R-A-P, crap. She treated her like she was her maid, cook, encyclopedia... It was so sad... At one point, she even quoted "she was more fun when she was fat" to her ex-husband (who was in love with her). UGH! WHAT A BITCH!

From what I saw, it's a great movie. I can understand it a lot better now than I think I would have before August... When I met Landa...

Landa experienced some similar pain today. Everyone's been ignoring her, treating her like crap... some don't even acknowledge her existance. WHAT THE HECK IS UP WITH THAT? While watching the movie, I thought of the pain Landa has been going through lately, and how it's been affecting her: her personality, her outlook on life, her confidence... This pain she keeps on experiencing has got to stop before my Landa is gone and some other person is there instead...

I'm also experiencing some pain from people ignoring me, not so much treating me like crap. But I'm getting ignored again, which is not a great feeling to have. It doesn't help that I'm tiny either... GOD! WHY ARE PEOPLE SO DAMN IGNORANT?! It angers me so much that people can be so stupid. It's like they're always thinking "well, she's fat. I can't talk to her," or "she looks like she's 12. WHy should I bother?," or "She's unattractive. Why waste my time?" THIS IS WRONG! WRONG, WRONG, WRONG. EVERYONE deserves a chance in life, whether it be so-called "acceptance", love, friendship, aid... Each and every person deserves these things, no matter what the hell they look like, where they're from, or how "attractive "they are.

Well, I guess I DID end up making an entry. Holy crow! I should be able to write tomorrow. Till then!

blown ashes - still scatter

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